I started attending classes in the fall of 2010, and was going non-stop until the spring semester of 2012. That semester I had registered for an evening English class, and one hour before I was supposed to leave for class, I decided to drop. I needed time to think. I needed time to focus.
I made a lot of false starts when I started college in 2010. My first semester I took two classes, and did very well. The following semester, much to the dismay of some of my friends, I attempted to go full time, while also working full time. Epic fail. I ended up dropping two of the classes, and wasting quite a bit of money. I am paying out of pocket for this. There are no grants, no scholarships, no student loans; just cold hard cash. Even though CUNY tuition is quite low compared to many other colleges, it still costs over $700 per class. I am determined to get my money’s worth.
To graduate from Brooklyn College you must pass a set of core classes. These include, Classical Cultures, The Shaping of the Modern World, Music: It’s Language, History and Culture and others. I’ve noticed some of my classmates were not interested in these subjects. I recall one classmate in my Classical Cultures class who was complaining "Why do we need to study the Illiad? " she would mutter. "I want to be an accountant, I don’t need this". She saw this class as an obstacle, and an annoyance. She had no interest in Roman history. She just wanted to pass this class so she could get her degree. These core classes were installed so those who graduated from Brooklyn College had a well-rounded education. People used to go to college to better themselves, to invest in their minds and enrich their lives. I sometimes think people attend college just to get a good paying job.
It’s easy to pass the courses if I want to do just that. I’m good at reviewing material and deciphering what I need to know to pass the exams and even get an A. But that would mean not reading all the material and cheating myself out of everything that class has to offer. The only way to do that with my schedule at the moment was to take one class at a time.
But that seemed overwhelming to me. So I stopped for a bit. I even contemplated not going back at all. What is the point? It was going to take too long. I enjoyed it at first. It was fun to be able to read for just pure enjoyment without having to worry about this paper or that paper. But the past few months I have felt lost and a little unfocussed. The hardest part was hearing about friend of mine graduating. If I had been going full time, I would be graduating by now. I felt heart sick about it. That is when I knew it was time to back. When you take a hiatus at Brooklyn College, even just one semester, you have to reapply. I was nervous they wouldn’t accept me back. I don’t know why I was worried. My grades were excellent, and I had even made the Dean’s list.
I got the notice today: Congratulations on your re-acceptance to Brooklyn College.